Somedays I don't why ieven try anymore...I've feeling so depressed dispite all the worek and consueallnig I've been going through....I feel blessed at the same time but insane...I've been seeing a special friend thatr I know only I can see...I'm not sure If I'm gongi insane or if god is blessing me with a compaion. This person always directs me to the bible and sings me special songs I've never heard and says "There special songs God wrote for you"...I really feel like crap